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i made a new journal guys...err i know i know this is the 3rd one..well listen i used to get bored with alot more then just sn's and lj names..so get used to it LOL im a undecisive person! well well bare with me..but i didnt really like the other lj name it was stupid and stuff and i just made it one day cuz i was bored but i really like this one it describes me! =]
well add me everyone!!!
gurl_in_l0ve
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well im at school at hey guess what..
SCHOOL SUCKS!ERR
and i dont feel good..
but maybe this w/e will be good!
i wanna see bri and anthony after school
and then after work too,yay!
<333
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well..as some know i had a rough couple of weeks..and every
lil thing that reminds me of it or..things i see
myself or think about just kills me!But i will say me
and anthony are alot better..ppl make
mistakes,im a fogiving person LOL just don't take advantage!
well im str8 now..things are actually really good,and anthony
makes me the happiest person..and i love him so much.
It would be diff. w/o him in my life.
The ring 2 was good..very scary,but wayyy better than the
1st one.right???this question isnt for briana..she thinks the 1st
one was better what a loser!hahaha love her still
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
the used
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everything is going wrong..and i hate the thought
of nothing being fixed
Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
Go with your instincts along with some bad advice
This didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
You blame me but some of this is still your fault
<3
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well last night was ok i guess..
i worked,work sux!
went to anthony's
then like every single party was broken up!
err.that is frustrating.
so we stayed at anthony's/
i spent the night.
4 some reason i think we got more across 2
eachother last night then the past couple of horrible days!
that is a plus...yes'm it is.
today had a meeting 4 work at 8:30 blahh! =[ so early.
well tonight,i think ima hangout w/ anthony again..cuz
2mrw im going with him to his dads to get my car fixed.
i wanna see the ring 2!!!
and i dont wanna work tonight!
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
-dashboard confessional
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ok so my day sucked..i think you could already tell by my other entries.But not only that but the night sucked too..i had gay work which wasnt so bad,it was short and easy,but then i went to anthony's which i honestly don't know why now..maybe in the begining i thought me and him could talk and get sumthings str8..but that didnt work either,and i just thought it would be nice to see him and that maybe he wanted to see me.but that didnt work either,cuz we did talk but didnt get ne thing str8..and then bri and my sis left to do sumthing and i stayed cuz i was already in a bad mood and so i stayed in his room,bored,while he was with his party..which i understand and i dont blame him for that too cuz it was afterall his house..but i felt left out and seemed like he didnt even care that i was there..so i left and guess what,he really didnt care about that either,i could tell by the way i called him and said bye properly so i didnt interupt him talking with all of his friends..and he basically brushed me off..i wish he showed that he did care about me.the anthony i could be myself with..
what happened wen you wrote this..well the good part of it ne wayz?
"yeah same here and i'm sorry for everything to. i just have to stand by what i think is right and not let u get what u always want. i have to deal with this just as much as u do. an it sucks cuz i know i dont want this. i love you and i'm sorry fo everything. and don't think i dont care it's just i keep it inside until i am alone. i get to act like nothing is wrong when in reality its killing me on the inside. i love you! bye"
i thought that maybe..you felt the same,but you dont even about that..and not too long ago when we got in a fight you gave me a card saying that even though we fight you dont wanna lose me and we have bad times but they dont equal up to the good times we have..what happened huh..i miss you,i want things back..i hope its not to late for you to realize you want me too..if you ever do realize or want me..
so im home at 12 doing nothing..
im just broken hearted and crushed..i dont think there is ne thing left i can do about this..god he looked gr8 tonight too,i wanted to kiss him,but its also the last thing i would actually do right now!you guys understand right??? errr i dont wanna dwell over this nemore and i was ok at work,cuz i wasnt with him or thinking about him..but its ok i'll just try to do things to keep me bizy..er hard.i wonder what he'll do all spring break..maybe he'll wanna be with me..ugh i doubt it.im a wreck what is wrong with me i've never ever acted like this b4,why is this diff. i know the answer but its not for everyone.part is cuz i love him so much though!
ok w/e w/e everything has changed so much..even me now,whether im with him or not.
well this is getting long and hes gunna read this so ima stop while im ahead..well i think thats too late now..
ima go watcha tv byeez everyone!thanx to all my friends who are there for me..i <3 u guys so much..your my whole world now =
And def. thanx to a gr8 friend who has been there and going thru kinda of the same shyt thanx for trying to make this easier for me..and telling me the reality of this its helping..i wanna be strong like you!
im so gay..i regret everything i did wrong in that relationship..i wish i could take it all back and change it!err
ima try to have fun,hey its spring break!=]
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i hope your happy now..
maybe we both will be,im def. not done crying i know that for sure,cuz i think of stupid things like you and another girl..ouch it does hurt!Or how much i love you..cuz no1 ever meant
what you mean to me now!But i guess things had to be done like this and it sucks i just want everything to go away and 4 me not to have to think about any of it!
Its only day 1 though.i'll never 4get you,i care about you too much for that,ok at least know that!!!!I keep hoping that this will turn out to be like a movie and things will be ok,and back to normal,but thats
pretend and this is real,and i've never felt so bad,guilty,or responsable for something like this b4..i regret pushing you away..im sorry i couldnt give you more time to decide what you wanted but im not strong enuff to wait around,so i made the desicion for you but you seemed diff. like you didnt
care so i had to..im sorry!
i wish i could just be in your arms again..but i dont think thats happening
ne time soon!
wow life sux right now!
and the truth is i miss you so much!
</3
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And I thought that you said
things were improving.
These laces are untied,
but my feet are still walking away.
-emery
suck it up daniela,suck it up!
everything happens for a reason..
i wish i believed that right this second.
im just trying to be strong!!!
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well i probably said all of this so many times in the past few days..
no doz is the enemy!errr!& im sorry,for the fights and the other.
Another thing is...
i love you and if this is what you want
then there is nothing i can do,but stand
right here and watch everything go by,and
watch everyone smile,and know how fake mine are!
But i've learned that nothing can ever go as planned..
its impossible,so i'm not gunna dwell on the upsetting,
cuz who knows it could have meant to be like this all along..
even though honestly i don't see it that way right now!
that could also be all the tears filling up my eyes </3
This is one more day on the verge of tears.
-brandnew,failure by design
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So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.
brand new
i likeeyyy!
where are you anthony
at work?
i wanted to see you 2nite
oh well </3
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well hey ya'll..i just got home not too long ao..i
worked tonight and then which was a biatch..err work!
well i got taco bell and it sucked..my quesadilla was
burnt ewwwwyy. =[
things about boys are silly at work..crazy assumtions.
wow im bored!
well im gunna go..
hey good songs by sugarcult..worst december,back to california,
memory,and she's the blade!!! =]
p.s.fernando is gunna workat roadhouse yay!awesomeness!!!!!
THIS IS FOR A FRIEND..you know who you are girl!
pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out:
you can never get him out of your head.
-sugarcult
goodnight<33
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wow..talk about i became a snood addict since i downloaded it...
err LOL
well i worked tonight,even got off early
and earlier had a perioscale...ouch!
my gums and teeth hurt..itz only about to get worse..yikez.
kk
night night
<3
i<3anthony
and bri bri
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well i completely redid my journal..i like it alot!<3
iz more fun,do you guys like it??? tell mEe...
work 2nite..same old same old.blah!
And skool during the day erkk!
But i went to anthony's after..fabbity fab i must say =]
day b4 i got 4 cavities filled,i have 6 more err,
i like swweetz wat cani say..hmmmm?
2mrw i have perioscale(DEEP CLEANING OF THE MOUTH LOL)
to do cristina sez it hurts,but...
im brave i can take the pain..i think,well at least
im leaving skool early I LOVE IT!!!!
oh b4 i go i got the watch i wanted its soo cute..
$140,not too bad but itz dooney and burke and its pink
and other fruity colors,ive got alot of compliments bout
it yay!=] well gtg night night..kisses
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well 2day i woke up pretty late and went to my dads for a bday family thing
w/ elena and my sis for their bdays LOL =]
went to work.
not so bad tho.
bri and anthony came and ate at roadhouse w/ me.
that was nice of them..after they talekd for like an hr...wierd,
tickles me funny,not that i think ne thing is goin on..but w/e im gay!
then anthony came over and we watched monk..
i love him alot tho..i know i dont talk bout him much in my journal,
but he really is a very important person in my life.and i love him with all my <3!
i hope he knows that =]
wel im going to sleep now..skool tomorrow blah,
except that i can read my books..especially
"dancing in my nuddy nuddy pants"
yay!!!!!!!
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well bri iz sleeping right now..ugh that bum!im jk i <3 her!
but im bored and was just online to look up a term teraflop..which my x friend..maybe no my friend thought
i was lieing to him about,but now he knows i wasnt cuz i called him and told him i looked it up online and then he apologized to me for getting mad and thinking i lied to him about sumthin so silly in the 1st place..err boyz they think they know everything!LOL =]
well i also went to work it wasnt soo bad
kelly,brittney,and branden came and ate there!
then bri meet me there after work we chilled for a few,then i tryed to call anthony for what seemed like FOEVER..but he didnt answer so me and bri went to fridays and had cheese sticks and a brownie obsession,then we hung out w/ billy for alil and will and kenny met us there and we hungout with them for alil too and then i came home like 45 mins ago..what an exciting night NOT lol..
except when sum boys chucked a piece of celery at bri's head haha =]
and we talked about stuff in front of will hahahaha =] =] =]
well im going to sleep.
goodnight every1 <33
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havent updated in awhile like centuries..
at least it seems that way! ya?
Well last night was ok..i went to knights it was very cute.
And Mark won..hes awesome,i loved the spiderman scene that was gr8!
Then i spent the night at anthony's house..<3
Well 2day i work at 6
and at 2 i'm going out to lunch w/ my mom
cristina,anthony,and victoria for tina's bday!=]
she'll be 16 march 10th!3 cheers!!!
well pce out =]
[[ i think ur stuck in an uneasy place,making it hard to
move your feet in the right direction,i tryed to move them for you
so many times..but its like they don't want to..and i can't make you see
if you don't wanna see it yourself ]]
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This ride
Is drifting slowly to the side.
We’re swerving off the road,
Going past the cones.
That warns us from the start.
- i wanna hear you sad
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well hey you guys
im at anthony's i spent the night.
cOnfusing,right?
well not really in a way.
cuz i love him!
ne way i work at 12..errr!
last night already sucked really bad at work!
good thing co-workers talk bout eachother its alwayz fun!
v-day was really good<3
And adam got me and bri presents yay! =]
ima go to your show next friday double yay!
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
-sensesfail
xxxx
dani
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What's wrong?
I feel so alone again
The look in your eyes sometimes...
pretending that it's all right.
make up and move on,
our ways never change
-SUGARCULT
havent posted in what seems like an eternity LOL
well going to work..err
oh found out too suprising things last night there tho!LMAO
jess i gotta tell ya1
going to a show with jess tomorrow yay=]
xo
dani
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hey hey
yesterday i worked and it was a biatch LOL
i got really tired easily,so after work
me,jessica,cari,bri,meliss,jason,and tommy were supposed
to go to ale house,that didnt work out but its kool,tommy
is a sell out!LOL
And me n jess and cari will hangout another time(ROUNDUP RIGHT)=]
ne wayz i work today but i've felt soo sick all day errr =[
i duno if i can go..
mel gave me her cell fone its niicee thanx babe!<3
then bri and meliss spent the night..me n bri didnt feel good tho.
But we did get tacobell =] yay!yummy im hungry now!
i <3 every1
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HA no skool
SENIOR SKIP DAY 2005 =]
well im goin to the beach soon yay!
i need a tan LOL
after i need to go get my hopesfal concert tickets!
major fun =D
pce out
x luv ya x
ps.
why does every1 post to sad and depressed ppl
like ppl who write poems or post songs HUH
whaata bout me???
ima post a poem and you better all POST
or i'll cry and write about it and then you reall better
POST!
ehh im tired now byez
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